Starting a new Bible study

"A Mom After God's Own Heart"

I was super excited when Ashlee and I finally decided on a book to do. I picked them up today and started glancing over it to see if it would be Beth Moore long or short. Needless to say it is closer to Beth Moore.

I did a different version while having Denise Hussein mentor me (A Wife After God's Own Heart) and I really liked it. I was ready to tackle many needed changes in my life and that book spoke to me that we needed Scott (Thank you God). I can't imagine never having him.

Anyway, for what ever reason I am nervous about this Bible study. I mean we all know every mom can always use some help being a good mom and what better way that to hear it from God. THAT'S what scares me. I am not only gonna hear what I need to do but things I am sure I shouldn't be doing. I need those books that throw it in your face but they scare me at first because I tend to be a perfectionist. I don't need to be reminded; I do that myself. I knew 100% when I was younger that I WOULD not have kids and definitely not get married. Well...

What is a mom after God's own heart? A mom that has a heart like God or for God? I know I will never be perfect but I want to be able to say that I tried to do all I could to be more like God intended. It did take a long time to realize. God doesn't need a bunch or Carrie Germans, or Angela Swanns. He needs knuckle heads who are stubborn, loud and full of mistakes too. I could never be them because God doesn't want me to be. He died for me just as I am and allows me to grow as I am and be me and more like Him.

Can you not say "God is good. All the time"!!!!!!

As I read the study I will try to put into words what God lays on my heart and teaches me. I want me boys to find a wife who loves God more than them, loves freely, and wants nothing but the best for them--and nothing less.

-C-